Maybe I was a bit hasty in moving to the Olympic distance this year (or at all).
Granted, there are times when I was racing sprints, and I wish the bike segment was just a wee bit longer.
But the fact is that I just don't know if the volume, required to train for oly races, is something that I can commit to.
If it were a once in awhile-type-of-volume, it would definitely be manageable. The whole thing came crashing down on me over the weekend. I had a longer workout. The longest workout than I have had in years. That's not an exaggeration.
I was out there. I was just getting madder and madder. I kept thinking, "WHAT THE HELL AM I DOING?" as I started thinking that this is what my year is going to look like. My entire racing season is going to be made up of getting up early and putting in long training days.
Fortunately, there's no such thing as "wasted fitness"....although, you'll hear that phrase thrown around quite a bit in the world of triathlon.
I have an oly race in a few weeks. What do I do? I can do the race. I already have a room reserved. I could move down to the sprint. Although driving THAT far to do a sprint isn't really my idea of a good time.
My concern now is the training leading up to the race. Can I do it? UGH. SO UNAPPEALING. Dare I even say "IT SUCKS"?
In a way, I'm angry at myself. I certainly didn't have to move up. Maybe I should have inquired a little more about what commitment would be required.
The last thing I want is to do a race that I'm unprepared for....
unprepared as in I quit doing the workouts because I don't want to do them.
So, I guess. I'll take a few more days to think it through.
I want to make one thing very clear.
Doing longer distance training has nothing to do with mental toughness.
It has everything to do with how I choose to spend my free time.